Alicia Keys - Brand New Me
It took a long, long road to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
It took one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, its just a brand new kind of me
That ain't bad
I found a brand new kind of free
I have came to a point where I do not seek the "hoo-hah-s" in the things I do but instead I am in the state where I am at peace, I do not have to be boastful instead I am thankful for the things I have and the days that I am awake!
I used to be the kind of person that care about what others think of me - sometimes a little too much. Who doesn't?! Why do people go posting so many things on Facebook or Instagram or whatever social network that we do have in our modern world today?! Tell me?! One of their motives is for people to see that their life is happening and the need for people to admire them for what they are doing and have in life! Now I am at so and so luxury place, I am eating expansive-you-gotta-wow-platter, I am dancing at in-the-place-to-be, I am hanging out with whos-the-whos, I am currently reading oh-i-am-so-intelligent book and the list goes on and on.
I so naturally answer people who used to say "Wah! Why you never inform one!"
My answer? How to inform? Call you and tell you eh I am going to Switzerland again?!? Oh I forgot! Should checked into Facebook and add some pictures like all the other people right!
To be honest I am not that kind of person! Even if I post pictures on Facebook it is not because of the place or the things I am enjoying, it is the person I am celebrating! No I don't post pictures of myself sitting boisterously on a couch at some happening place. Instead I post picture of hanging out at McD! Why? Coz I appreciate my sister who came all the way to hang out with me when my husband is on business trip! And we have the first breakfast together after so long in McD the place where we hang always previously. Why I post pictures of me PD? Not because it is expansive! A lot of people have been to Avillion! But it is just the company that I enjoyed! That is just me! I am at peace with myself and I am thankful!
At times I felt like doing it too, like when I am at Hard Rock or Shangri-La Rasa Sayang Penang or even at Belgium or Austria, I would love to post that too and blast to the whole world that I am now lounging in the luxury of these places but I couldn't find words for it! I couldn't bring myself to be such a person! Maybe I could in the past but now I just could not! I felt fake and I felt God wouldn't like it if I am acting in such a way BUT nonetheless I am thankful to my Lord Jesus as He is the one that showered all this blessings upon my life! Amen!
So I am just thankful for the things I have nowadays, everything that we owned does not comes from us! We just do what we can the rest God has showered down rains of blessings and we held on tight to the rock of our salvation! Never to let go.. Seeking first His Kingdom and His Righteousness! Rest of it I am just thankful!
