Like I somehow mentioned and grunted a few times back;
"All brides seem to be size 2!"
And me being somewhere between size 4 -6 is definitely in a big loss.. Matter of fact in the wedding category, i reckon myself as "the biggest loser" is to the society, "a mammoth" among the animals or maybe "a giant" to my little people.... Aww... I definitely look out of proportion when it comes to seeing myself trying those gowns. In spite my hubby constant assurance upon me! I am not fat! But when it comes to wedding size M or L is like a "Eww you are fat" Maybe I am being critical upon myself but honestly, I have been slacking on myself with the weight thing ever since my relationship with hubby stabilizes! That is my fault and I confess my sin to myself.
So now I am on strict weight watching! NO more fatty food, no more supper (oh good bye Nescafe & Butterscotch) & above all no more big portion of whatever-i-think-i-want-to-eat-i-wallop. I have no choice but to take drastic steps! I have started my weight watching cum reducing one and the half months prior to choosing my first round gown for photo shot but yet when that day came on 25th October I still felt inadequately fat! Eventhough I had managed to reduce a whooping 5kg prior! Still I felt funny when the zipper doesnt went up as I wanted it to for the gowns that I have chosen. But finally I managed! I had chosen all 6 gowns... I somehow am pleased with it, alteration would be done....
Even after that, I continue my journey of weight watching, to be frank, indeed there are times when everything is alright! But i do give myself some slack with some yummy burger (guilt pangs will then cave in and make me feel totally bad about downing that yummy burger) BUT in-spite everything's alright, there are times when I totally would want to give in but tell myself it is for the better cause! I will look slim and slender ;) Yay! But then resisting that fat delicious bowl of "char kuey teow" can at times be challenging like doing a cartwheel or something (ok what's more difficult than cartwheel??!) But overall ok! I am spotting a recognizable downsizing! And that is something that I would love to maintain for a long time!
But then after that! The wedding pictures are done and while choosing I cant help but notice that I am a little chubby! Although hubby said that I am being paranoid BUT really you can't blame me though! (Maybe a little for being over critical) But the brides I see nowadays are all size 2... Size 4 doesnt qualify! So I am really going to push hard as the days are counting down!
I only now have about two months to slim up and "look right" for the big day! And fingers crossed! I am eating lesser and doing the right workout to look right! Hopefully I would lose another 5kg and I will be safe! Nobody wants to be a fat bride! (Now that there is another issue! Fat = "Is-the-bride-pregnant") So no choice! I am being critical about myself but this is one in one's lifetime! And the cause is worth the watch! MY WEIGHT.....
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