I am a bride and NOT a.......

I am beginning to feel the heat! I am going out really stress! And I am not feeling really good! Only place to vent?? Here in the blog! I know that everybody perhaps has gone through a lot more stress than I have planning their own wedding BUT trust me planning this isn't really a bed off roses and the process hadn't been easy! I thought I could overcome it easily but then as there are only 2 days left, things started to fell apart! Apparently I thought I have already manage it properly but then more and more things are starting to pop out!

I am the bride and NOT A FREAKING TRANSPORT MINISTER!
I wonder why people are so immature & that is the problem with inviting close friends! They come to you and tell you they don't have any transport and require you to arrange for them, if you did not they will not be able to make it blah... blah... blah..... So in the midst of getting my already full calender through! I have to run around texting and calling everybody to see if they are along the way to pick up these people! And when I have to call this people on behalf, I have to talk very politely and "sort of" like asking for their favor! And many people would not want to fetch people they don't know! Ending up I have to call one by one till I finally find someone to do the chauffeuring.

I am the bride and NOT A FREAKING RECORD KEEPER! 
Why do I have to be the one to chase for everything from A-Z? Because I am the bride? I am feeling very stress! I just want to look good on that day. Guess that sitting pretty does not apply for me! People keep telling me, go to sleep early, stress less, eat healthy and so on and so forth! But trust me, if everybody start to ask me for everything then I am not going to be able to do what you all told me! People ask me again and again what time is rehearsal, how we come and so on! And then the hotel! Everything that I have put into black and white, all my emails has probably gone to waste! I have to keep reminding the PIC again and again on what to do, what is require and how to do things! Why am I paying her for then? If I have to record keep everything that I require for her!

I am the bride and NOT SOME STUPID PUNCHBAG!
Nuff said! All tantrum please revert somewhere else! 

I am the bride and NOT GOD! To tell you the truth! I do not know what is happening and what will happened! If everybody can just do their duty then everything will be alright! But right now it seems like everybody is slacking out and I am not being able to handle it. God is powerful, I am powerless. He is all knowing, I am just a stupid. He is the most magnificent, I just want to be a beautiful bride! Please Lord help me!

As I am typing this! I have this deep feeling like I want to cry! I do not know why! Maybe this is what they call wedding jitters? Well I guess so! I think I am going to go to sleep!